So I was kind of just enjoying my YunJae filled day, I was going through all the old video's of TVXQ happily when I started reading some comments from Exotics (And others) on Mirotic's music video. And I just got so angry!

Before I start, you should know that TVXQ is a LEGEND, and EXO is only a rookie group, they still have a long way to go, and exotics, you have many happy years with them left :)

So to clear this up. Yes, EXO had a lot of sales on their new album, but they didn't beat TVXQ's record. EXO is two groups right? From what I read, the Korean one sold 60000 something, and the Chinese sold 40000. TVXQ is ONE group, who sold 110000 something in the first week. You can't put EXO-K and EXO-M into ONE group, it's just wrong. It's like putting Super Junior M and Super Junior KRY together if they made the same album in two different languages. Really, it's just stupid. You don't go putting the Japanese version og Mirotic and the Korean version of Mirotic together, that would be a big number anyways. And it would be stupid.

So now we have that cleared.

There was not only exotics (I don't have ANYTHING against you exotics, some of you are just annoying, like many other fans of other groups) but other people, no names, who go around bashing TVXQ and Cassiopeia. Saying we're stupid for still believing that our 5 boys will come back. What if YOUR favorite group split? Would you just go "Well, that's what happens" wouldn't you shed a tear, maybe feel a bit empty? If you don't know, maybe you should ask someone who knows how it feels?

Well, my experience was painful, at least for me. My father and mother broke up the year I turned 12, I was still very young and as stupid as I was, I thought it was my fault, so I tried to kill myself, which is something I've never told my parents until this year. I remember wanting to cut my wrists, when I thought about all I haven't got to experience yet, and most of all, the group I had been a fan of for 2 years, I hadn't got the chance to show them off to my friends yet. So I put the knife back into the drawer, with just a small cut (Happily gone this day) and went to my room, put on my headset and played music as loud as I could. I listened to TVXQ - Hug and Balloons for a long time that day. I was absent from school for 1-2 weeks, what I did in those weeks is blank, the only thing I remember is my smiling face when I found my new passion. 

The year I turned fourteen, already been through the "age of stupid" where you wear a ton of makeup and straighten your hair 3 times a day, I'm happy it didn't last a year, I was just like that when I got this new friend, whom I'm not friends with anymore, happily. Well, that year, Mirotic came out, and boy was I happy. When the album beat all the records all I could think was "Man, have I found the right group or what?" Their popularity grew, and Mirotic music video got over 80 million views (FUCK YOU SM ENTERTAINMENT!) and gosh, I was so happy watching their live tours on my computer, I remember staying up all night, and my mom getting so angry that she actually threw my computer on the floor. 2008 was a happy year for me, and it was also the year I started shipping YunJae like crazy, even tho it started a bit when I watched TVXQ's Bonjour paris. Bonjour Paris was amazing, lots of fun to watch, and the members looked so happy. And that's where Junsu's famous line started "HEY! YOU WANT ME? I WANT YOU!" Thank you Junsu, for being stupid.

Well, 2009, their schedule leaked out online, and fans were shocked BEYOND words, what the hell is this? What are SM doing to these boys? 

Your normal artist would have only a 1/3 out of this one, just so you know. This list, is the reason behind the break up. There may be a few dark secrets which we don't know about, but this is the main thing, this is why JYJ sued SM. This is slavery, said by all Cassies and TVXQ.

In 2009 we didn't know they would split, the news came in 2010. Due to JYJ leaving, SM banned all SM artist from attending Mama awards 2009, and only JYJ showed up. That's when we probably knew something was happening. They didn't perform together anymore, JYJ was on their own, and TVXQ was on their own, but we didn't think much about it at this time. For me, I started thinking when I watched this:

What Jaejoong said at the end, it just... I knew something was wrong! Why wasn't Yunho and Changmin there? Why wasn't ANY other SM artist there? Why do they look like they're going to cry? I remembered watching them receiving awards before, Junsu running like mad to try and take the reward first, beat by Yunho at times. Changmin and Yoochun crying, Yunho trying to calm them down, Yunho speaking from the bottom of his heard, thanking us. Jaejoong engaging everyone in a hug, Yunho hugging his members in his arms, big smiles on their faces, a SMILE in their eyes. Watching this video, it was like everything was crashing down on them, missing two members, no running Junsu, no crying Yoochun (and Changmin), no Yunho to hold a breathtaking speach, no hugs, no smiles, no happiness. It still hurts, watching this now, I feel like I'm fourteen again, crying and wondering "Why are they like this?"

"I don't know if they're watching right now or maybe they'll watch this later, our two friends, I want to say I love you" - Kim Jaejoong

2010 came, the horrible news came, making many thousand Cassies leave the fanclub and use their time hating TVXQ, but I understand, I understand their pain, how can I not? When I was exactly like this? turning my head away from my boys lives and pain.

I've heard that TVXQ was originally going to leave together, but Yunho backed off, saying he was the leader, he had to stay and protect their name, and Changmin backed off too, no one knows why. I've heard Jaejoong was shocked beyond words that Yunho and Changmin could do this to them. JYJ didn't back out, and ended up where they are now, struggling to be known, because they can't be promoted, and nobody knows why, it's weird since SM shouldn't have any ropes on them anymore after they ended the lawsuit. 

As we all know, Yunho ended up drinking, for so many months after the split, Changmin didn't know what to do, JYJ chouldn't do anything. Cassiopeia was devasted, angry and we felt BETRAYED by the group we called our family. I personally was so angry I swore I wouldn't look at them anymore. I didn't use any time on them for so long, I was drowning myself in SHINee and Super Junior, FT-Island and MBLAQ. I was pretending that I wasn't hurt, even tho I knew, deep inside, my heart was broken beyond repair. I searched up my favorite group on youtube, and watched their music video's, their hardwork, their smiles. I was wondering "Where are they now? Are they happy? Are they maybe together?" And tears were flowing, that's when I decided I would NEVER cry for TVXQ again, I had to be strong. I realised, when my parents split, and I didn't see my father for a year, there was TVXQ, to tell stupid jokes, shower me with smiles, make my heart beat like crazy and make my laugh until I was crying. And I decided, in that very moment, that now, it was my time to stand up for my group, I started watching all their movies, music video's, download all their songs. I even drew drawings of them, I remember drawing Jaejoong and Yoochun, as the first TVXQ drawing I ever drew. It's also the first drawing with realistic people that I ever drew and I still think it's perfect.

September.12.2010, sorry for the bad quality.

When JYJ gave out their English album, The beginning, in October I honestly wasn't that happy, it was a great album, but it didn't have the TVXQ feel to it, and I thought "Well, they're JYJ now..." and then Jaejoong said "We're still a part of TVXQ" and I thought "Show it then!" and they did when they sang W and In heaven, the TVXQ feel was there! The feeling of hardwork, dedication and working with their hearts.

And then, 2011 came, and in January I heard "TVXQ's having a comeback in January!" AND I WAS UP THE ROOF! I thought "I will finally see Yunho and Changmin after such a long time!" And their picture was posted online, and I cried, I cried not for TVXQ, but for Yunho and Changmin. I was so proud, someone was there to keep the name alive, they didn't change their name to Homin either, I was so happy!

Oh how wonderful they look! I'm so happy they looked the same as they did when they disappeared. Now I thought, now we only need the comeback of the five of them, and I'm still waiting strong, bearing the words "Always keep the faith" & "Hope to the end" with me, close to my heart. I sincerly believe that I will NEVER stop listening to TVXQ, I won't stop until I at least have had this last satisfaction of seeing them together again. And I'm only seventeen now, and I've got plenty of years to wait, so TVXQ! YOU CAN'T SHAKE ME UP THAT EASILY! Not anything can be harder than the months I didn't know if you would split. As long as I believe in you, as long as you still have us, your fans, you can work yourself back together.
I will love you guys forever. I will keep the faith. I will stand by you. I will be proud of you. Whatever you do, wherever you are, whomever you're with, you should know that as long as you don't change, I will be your fan forever.

5 - 1 = 0
3 + 2 = 5
Jung Yunho + Kim Jaejoong + Park Yoochun + Shim Changmin + Kim Junsu = DB5K
Always keep the faith!~♥  | Hope to the end~ ♥
This is what I believe in, this is my religion, Dongbangism. My home, my family and my best friends.
YunJaeYooSuMin | YunJae | Yoosu | Minfood

I hope at least this got through to someone, stop bashing other people's favorite groups. It only hurts, it starts fanwars, why can't we all be a huge happy kpop family? Living in the kingdom of Kpop, listening to kpop, and loving kpop with all our hearts?

Always keep the faith!
...I will hate myself until next year for forgetting Jung Yunho's birthday...

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